Last week I took my eldest son to 'Go Ape'in Enfield. If you're not familiar with it, it is like an adventure playground above the trees. Great! How exciting! My son is a fearless adrenaline junkie who was chomping at the bit.
I, on the other hand, am a wimpering jelly on the escalators in John Lewis.
Example A) I arrived at the Reception of a posh hotel on my hands and knees once - in my defence, it was a glass escalator that scaled the outside of the building!
Example B) I have been up the Eiffel Tower (albeit on my hands and knees. And my eyes were mostly shut...does that still count?)
Back to 'Go Ape'...the day arrived and I was excited about spending time with my little man (and secretly congratulating myself for prising him away from his PC). I wasn't nervous at all. I tend to not think about things until they are in my face.
However, once it was 'in my face' and I was above the tree canopy, on a tiny creeking platform, faced with a rope and a skateboard on wires...then I will admit to shaky hands and muttering to myself, "You can do this, you can do this."
And guess what? I did it. My emotions and instincts were screaming, "Noooooooooooooooooooooooooo!" But the intellect won. I breathed. I was harnessed. I was safe. I was okay. I went for it.
And I'm so glad I did! We had a funny, happy, exhausting day together.
There have been, and will be, many times when I will feel the fear, and refuse to give in.
However horrible it is to speak up in public / tackle a difficult issue with someone / change something fundamental, it is always worse to live in the shadow of the fear and the darkness of regret.
Change happens because you make it happen. Big or small. Stand up. Fight for it. Make it happen. One life. Live it well. Be happy.